back

hey everyone.

its been almost a month since the last post. sorry!
now that im back in melb and sch is starting again, the blog will be updated more regularly.

tasmania pics and pics from the sb3 uniform nite out will be posted soon.

right now i just dun feel like doing anything. im so sian....
every morning over the past few days when i wake up, i think about what i will be doing in the future. its probably not a good idea to worry about the future too much, and just take it day by day, but i cant help but worry about where i'll be in a few yrs time. most of this i think has to do with my course.

last semester when i started out, architecture was like rEALLY waht i wanted to do. but now that ive dived into it for a year, and seen snippets of what the industry is like....it scares me. cant help but worry that if i dun make it as an architect, i CANT DO ANYTHING ELSE!!! its too specialised. u know that "calling" that doctors have...like they WANT to be doctors....well, i dun feel that at the moment. its as if i just keep going on n on, day after day, rolling forward towards an inevitable outcome that i cant hide from.

bleah....i dunno. like i said.....really sian rite now.

life ahead seems so uncertain. what am i doing???? i dunno..... waht is my purpose in life???? i dunno....

4 more years here is a very very long time. and im not even sure if its what i want to do. to quote someone..."nothing is worse than uncertainty. your soul leaves you."