one of those days

feeling slightly depressed today.
had a shit time at work yesterday. i accidentally tipped some the mayonaise bucket over and it fell.....well, to cut a long story short....it caused a chain reaction that led to a plate being broken and about 10 chicken wings dunked in mayonaise. not to mention a gooey mess on the floor. boss was pissed.

my exam draws ever nearer, and i still have no motivation to study for this paper. partly bcos...i dont know WHAT to study. i looked at the past exam paper and i might as well have been reading a greek manuscript. i didnt understand anything. at least if u read something and dont understand it, but you know what u need to do to understand it, then u can go and study what u know u are lacking. am i making sense? i dunno. i just re-read that sentence and it makes no sense to me too. but hopefully u get the idea.

i admire those ppl who are so mentally strong... who can look past the little setbacks in life and move on. im so not one of those people. i must live in my perfect world where all is good and the sky is bright n sunny, and everything that i planned to do goes off without a hitch. anything contrary to that, and i get...well.... depressed. its so bad...
well, im working an extra two shifts over the wkend, so hopefully things get better. not sure what to make of my exam revision strategy yet...heading to uni later to try n figure it out.

usually when im depressed i feel like running. but today i dont. i feel like being a lazy ass and eating nachos n ice cream while watching DVDs.

yknow what..... i miss home.
i miss my parents, and i miss suresh n satiish n all my friends.
wont get to see them till the end of the year. thats a long time to wait.

someone once said that life sucks, but thats what makes those happy moments all the more precious.